By Tiffany Scandal
( Ladybox Books; March 23, 2015)
Publication Date: March 23, 2015
Tiff Scandal’s thematic collection of short stories, Jigsaw Youth, is sort of like an On the Road for women – if Sal Paradise was a lesbian named Ella who waitressed in a sleazy Portland diner and played a Telecaster in a punk rock band.
Unlike most of the books we review here, Scandal’s array of a dozen-plus stories is less about desperate people forced into desperate crimes by their loneliness and alienation than it is about desperate people who find themselves forced into desperate lives.
The story unfolds at a sedate pace, fueled by fast food and cheap wine. Ella bounces from Oregon to California to the Ozarks to New York and then back again, traveling a trail of dreams and hopes littered by bare-breasted photos of her and her suicide girlfriends.
Romances are forged and abandoned; friendships are made and cast aside. Ella has the ego of Dean Moriarty, but lacks his self absorption. Unlike Dean, she is not looking to fuck and flee; she wants to love and be loved; she is not consumed by the desire for new highs, new sensations. She pines for human connection.
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The book has some splendid writing in it – seriously good language, dialog that rings true, images that pop back into your head long after you close its pages.
For example, Ella becomes the target of little jabs from high school classmates after she blackens both her eyes on a stranger’s elbow in a concert mosh pit: “Kids at school point and laugh almost every time they pass me in the hallway,” she writes. “Didn’t you learn your lesson the first time? What do you say to a girl with two black eyes? Nothing you haven’t already told her twice.”
This absolutely has the verisimilitude of actual high school sarcasm -- the snide tone that kids use in “cutting” sessions when they are trying to put someone else down.
Similarly, while Ella is hanging out with her best friend, Mensa, they find Mensa’s brother “making out with his girlfriend on the couch. Mensa smacks the back of his head and calls him a cochino. He blindly throws a pillow at us and gets back to swapping spit.”
Swapping spit. The image is disgusting but somehow perfect.
Mensa is a key figure in Ella’s sketchy biography. The two girls are besties, but Mensa seems to be the only person in the world who doesn’t recognize her Sapphic bond to Ella. Even her cochino brother picks up on it:
“Are you guys really Lesbos?” Mensa’s brother’s girlfriend asks from the couch.
“They say they aren’t. They totally are.” Her brother responds without even looking.
They resume kissing.
“Actually,” Mensa pointing at her brother on the couch. “That’s so gross.”
She pretends to stick her finger in her mouth and makes retching sounds.
The only one remotely as obtuse about her lesbianism is Ella.
“I didn’t think there was anything wrong with being queer,” she says when it finally dawns on her that she is attracted to women, not men. “”I felt ridiculous, almost stupid for not thinking it was a possibility.”
Mensa is a good deal less upbeat about the notion. When Ella blurts that she thinks she is gay, her best friend drops her like a used condom.
“Everything had turned upside down, seemingly overnight. It hurt that she rejected me. She was my best friend, someone I told everything. We’d even look at pictures of women together and talk about the ones we liked and why. Now that she knew what that meant, she didn’t want anything to do with me.”
Another turning point in Ella’s story occurs when she allows Christian, a man she has met, to spend the night on her couch. To show his gratitude, he rapes her. The scene is described in a low-key manner, with minimal brutality and physical violence (aside from the rapist holding Ella down when she struggles). But the off-handed nature of the assault – Christian seems to think forced intercourse is a normal perk for a man sleeping on a woman’s sofa -- makes the sequence even more horrifying.
“I sat on my bed, trying to process what just happened, staring at my sweats and underwear around my ankles,” she says after driving off her attacker. “I felt sore. I got changed, suddenly feeling very cold. I stuffed my clothes in the trash . . . . The only thing I could manage, after the fact, was to ask, ‘What the fuck?’”
If the rape complicates Ella’s view of men – and it does – it plays hell with her romantic connection to women. After Ella runs into Hope, a former girlfriend, the two end up making love.
“When I wake up,” Ella says, “I find myself remembering what Christian did to me. The bruises. I run to the bathroom and vomit. Hope knocks on the door, asking if I’m okay. I tell her I’m fine, I just had too much to drink.”
Ella’s life is complicated and confusing. Yet she struggles to find meaning in it – and a modicum of happiness. The book does not end on a Pollyanna-ish note, with all her problems solved and an infinity of Maxfield Parrish sunsets in her future; that would be phony and inauthentic. Let’s just say that for Ella, life goes on – albeit in a way that promises things may get easier.
The final pages describe her efforts to reconcile her relationship with her long absent father. A writer with less confidence in her art and her ability than Scandal might have wrapped things up neatly – a tearful meeting, quiet words of mutual regret for the lengthy separation, perhaps a heart-warming hug served up with the closing dialog. It is, after all, a work of fiction.
But an ending like that would be inauthentic, and authenticity is what Jigsaw Youth is all about. A phony closing coda would cheat Scandal's readers as well as her sharply crafted characters. She understands this. So this first-rate collection of stories ends with uncertainty about where these characters are heading and what they will face when they get there.
This is where the resemblance to Kerouac’s book is most striking. As Sal puts it early on, the task is “How to even begin to get it all down without modified restraints and all hung up on, like, literary inhibitions and grammatical fears.”
Scandal has managed this task very well, indeed.